What did I have?

When I was pregnant I couldn’t wait for that emotional moment, you see on One Born Every Minute of baby being born, where you hold your baby with your partner and quite possibly cry with happiness…

I awake in immense pain and feel like I’m going to be sick. I’m given more pain killers and water to drink through a straw. After a while of slipping in and out of consciousness, I ask…”what did I have?”. The nurse asks someone in the background and she comes back to tell me I had a boy. I felt glad but I also felt worried for my husband. He really wanted a girl and so I hoped he was ok with baby being a boy. Husband wanted to come and see me but the nurse said not quite yet. Eventually I became more conscious and pain was under control for him to come to my bedside. I could barely make out my husbands face but he was there and I was pleased. We chatted for a while as I asked how baby boy was doing. The nurse kept saying that my husband was a good painkiller, as I no longer was focussed on the pain below. She was right- I was just glad to see my husband again and know baby boy was ok.

I was eventually wheeled to the ward to be with other mother’s who had their babies with them. It didn’t register with me that I had yet to see my baby boy. I was still in the mindset- I’m not a mother yet. I gladly munched on a double decker chocolate bar knowing I didn’t have to stab my finger to check my blood sugar levels anymore. A nurse passes by and sees me enjoying this chocolate and says I shouldn’t be eating. I ask why and she says I wouldn’t want to know….What did she mean!?

I don’t know how much time passed before they wheeled baby boy to me. One minute I was baby-less and then all of sudden I had possession of a little human being. Even though I did not feel it, I acted all happy to see him. This is when things began to go wrong….